why is no one talking about the mouthfeel? as in, my lewd blog @mouthfeel
That Netflix fictionalized biographical series about Trotsky (lewd)
it is WILD to me that in the 21st century some television producers were like
"You know what the world needs? The world needs to know that Leon Trotsky wasn't just some guy Stalin expelled from the Soviet Union, he wasn't just a Colonel Sanders-Looking Motherfucker Who Was Killed With An Ice Pick.
Trotsky FUCKED. He FUCKED and he FUCKED all the time, Leon Trotsky was Hotsky."
- and long
just thinking, "hey asshole, maybe people would talk to you more if you werent complaining about your horse shit life every time they talked to you." and getting in an argument with myself because if i cant talk to people about it honestly then maybe i should just. invent a new me. erase and re write my own back story. act like ive always been that new person. id have to skip town of course.
the thought of doing this once i have the funds to change my name and move to the city are twofold: ive had a really fucked up life, and im trans. maybe i should use the opportunity of my transition to just be an entirely new fucking person and try my hardest to forget who i used to be
- and long
fuckin,,,, goddamn it. Never Not in a State of Distress. nothings ever alright and i thought i accepted that but sometimes i get so angry about it, about how much everything fuckin sucks and it doesnt have to but it does and theres no meaningful way left for me to change it. i got my life back on track for a year and i was the most miserable id ever been. so here i am, trainwreck of a person, just trying to accept my existence and do what i can do enjoy it for what it is and improve it in the ways that i can and getting so. goddamn. pissed about the fact that i cant do more, that i cant be more. that my best recourse is quiet acceptance. im getting back to where i was mentally 3 years ago and it is not a very good place.
nationalize eating ass #foss
19, she/her, they/them, trans/enby #enbytimeallthetime
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