Mads "Wiggle YOUR Pear" Viande @byttyrs@radical.town

Call For Submissions: Gay Ennui Periodical F/W 2019, a new grayscale zine to feature work by gay, bi, pan, queer, trans, nb, etc. creators* about gayness (and, y'know, the rest of that list), ennui, or both!

8.5x11" format, pagefold and margins leave four 4.25"x7" areas for pure text per sheet- or I can print images to the bleed! I accept layouts (in correct proportions) or I can do the formatting on plaintext/bare images. If you can give me your work in a form printable on one or two such pages, I am happy to accept your work in any media, until space/time/resources demand editorial discretion.

Contributor pay is $5, and possibly more if this is a wild success; paying contributors is my first priority upon sales, sorry, this project is super bootleg.

Submission deadline is November 15th, 2019, but there may be room for flexibility.

Email me questions or submissions at madsviande@gmail.com, or contact me elsewhere!

* I'm just trustin' y'all, I ain't the gay cops

fumigating my entire personal space with Axe body spray like an ungainly adolescent masking his personal stench, but I'm covering up the smell of child abuse so men will leave me alone

when you have a killer hangover from the laurels and gaseous updraft and someone shows you the prophecies you made when you were still full of Apollo:

I'm one of those ADHD people who read aggressively until late adolescence, when I stopped almost entirely. here is the most theory I've ever read at one pop: I read the Communist Manifesto in high school and all I could really gather was that it seemed to be responding to criticisms I hadn't read.

I have learned Marxism and gender theory almost exclusively through conversation, textual or in person. for the most part, I don't know what you can read to get a better grip on what I'm talking about. it's possible I'm talking out my ass. I can try to explain what I mean but most of my sources are, practically speaking, impossible to cite.

<My Words to Victor Frankenstein Above the Village of Chamounix: Performing Transgender Rage (1994), by Susan Stryker> is pretty good tho, and freely available:
https://read.dukeupress.edu/glq/article/1/3/237/69091/My-Words-to-Victor-Frankenstein-Above-the-Village

Hello! I'm Mads (Madeline, Madeleine, Madison, Magdalena... y'know, whatever!). Use she/her for me.

I'm a white U.S. settler-colonizer, a trans madwoman, and a faggot, and I post a lot of thinks on the Internet about gender & sexuality from a materialist lens, madness & religiosity, and the worldviews and tactics shared by reactionaries. I also write poetry and make art and music.

I am interested in any communism, class and race treason, gender justice/liberation, anti-imperial sabotage etc. you have on offer.

This is an 18+ account! I post way too much about being a domme and my history of being kind of a skank, and that's not super appropriate for minors.

the most relatable thing about Fun Home (the graphic novel), and there are a lot of relatable things about Fun Home, is just how much Allison Bechdel huffs her own farts in it. I don't mean that as a dig, it's just an observation. I am also constantly high as balls on my own bullshit in a similar fashion

I have given myself permission to stop or back off any time I need to but wisdom is the purest form of love I have to give and, socially constructed and implicated in gendered divisions of labor or not, withholding love is not very good for me

is it feminine labor to help people wrestle with the sharp objects they carry around in their minds? yeah. am I going to stop doing that for my friends and loved ones? no.

I think @dankwraith put it best when he said that anyone can learn mathematics, they just have to accept that they are a dumb baby who needs everything explained to them very very simply and in small parts.

maybe math is especially that way, but I think learning to be the dumb baby who is willing to chew and swallow one bite of information at a time is important, and difficult, for almost everyone.

the problem isn't you, the problem is being a human person. lots of human people have shame and guilt around what being a human person involves. that makes sense, and it sucks, but it's not your fault that human people need to learn things in bite-sized chunks

you really, actually have to respect someone to teach them anything important. and respect is a skill; it, too, is blocked by a mass of false and misleading information and protected by sophisticated techniques for self-bamboozling. to learn to respect people takes unlearning, first, and then still further new skills

for instance, the actual most difficult thing about coaching a man into developing emotional intelligence is finding a way to ask:

"are you experiencing any emotions that AREN'T anger? could you be? based on the situations you find yourself reacting to, what other feelings could a person have about that besides anger?"

... that doesn't imply you think they're stupid. and it's very important that you ACTUALLY have Genuine empathy for their difficulty with emotional awareness, because people are very sensitive to this kind of thing and might infer that you think they're stupid even if you don't

the trick to teaching an adult anything is that they have learned false or misleasing informatiom alongside a great deal of sophisticated techniques to avoid paying attention to what's actually there in front of them, and you need to simultaneously baffle that sophisticated haze of avoidance and bullshit and make them sift through the simple facts with the open mind of a child, while also not condescending or infantilizing them

and please remember... #JusticeTakeYourShirtOff

I would simply like the Masto UI to take either noticeably less time than it takes me to find a link and tap it, or noticeably more, to load its vertical-space-consuming UI elements and move the link in question out from under my touch